little boy

Little boy is quiet and shy. Little boy has a crush on a little girl. They part ways and he sees her years later wearing a veil. He wishes to say hi but he can't. Little boy is being hit on by boys. Little boy likes to read books. The boy's dad gets sick, seriously sick. His mom starts cheating on his dad. He becomes angry and confused. His dad passes away. He's still confused. Why is he not sad as he should be? Little boy is older now. He is yearning for a handsome boy, a smart boy. All these boys just want to have some sex. He feels ashamed about what he does with other boys. He feels one day he'll be older and all this will end. That he'd have a family and become normal like all the others. He can't quit, he can't change. Little boy feels lonely and dissatisfied. He hasn't found the kind of friend he wanted. He plans to leave his hometown and he does. The young man finds a job. He gets another job to please his family and fulfill the expectations of making money. He doesn’t have much time but he begins to forge friendships. This gay community is not easy to deal with you know. One sad night his knee is injured and he decides to quit one job. Little boy is radicalized by Cairo, that monstrous city that grinds its people. He wants to change the world, he wants to work in human rights. Little boy travels and lives abroad for a few months. He feels vocal and confident. He's more sure he wants to change the world. He changes his career. He travels more often. He feels he's doing something and needs to do more. Revolution breaks out. This is the moment long waited for. It keeps getting harder and complicated. This fight is too draining. The trauma is creeping in. the failed revolution, the difficult work, the challenging friendships. It all sinks in. He finds some pleasure in being radical. Radical sex encounters makes him excited.  He feels sick and finds out he's got HIV. What's the little boy to do? Quit it all? Leave his home and family? Become less radical? Become celibate altogether? Should he come out about it? Can he change the world? It's the end of life as he knows, but what will he make out of it?